Feeling ok, but not?

It's 3 am and I feel, strangely, better than I have in days. Blood sugar, arthritis, etc., seems to be under control. No headache or foggy-brainedness. Other than that my temperature is always either too hot or too cold, and my skin always feels (and looks) bad - I bought some stuff for that yesterday. Of course, it's also 3 am and I'm awake. Not good.

The weekend was good for me. We went food shopping and fixed my blown tires. Now I just need to get the rest repaired and washed, and all will be better. Also I plan on stopping at the frame store tomorrow to try to get my stuff framed for my office.

You know sometimes I look around at all these people healthier than I am and wish I could be as active and on top of things as they are. But I know some of that is facade, and some of that is my own imagination. I know a lot of this is just I'm sick and cannot keep up. I'm exhausted. I can hardly muster 20 hours in two weeks of work without being tired. I don't know what's wrong anymore. No doctor has the pills for me. In the end even caffiene and diet pills don't perk me up enough to get through.

I need to get help from somewhere, but I don't know where to turn. I guess tomorrow is just another step in the right direction, little by little...