My reply to my mom...

">I think you hit on something when you say you resent that dad made you be
>with his family if they didn't matter. Well, I think they did to him back
>then, or he thought they should. In time, he figured out they were too much work.
>
>But you don't realize he cares more about family than he lets on."

My mom's reply...

"funny you should say that- i know that- i just want him to admit it to me.
this is how we got in trouble- he does not share feelings. i dont even think
he admits to them till he blows. how funnny- that is my style and he calls
me on it. "

Anyway.. I stayed home today. I'm so stressed out that I have huge zits on my face and my body is just protesting moving. I just want to lay in my cocoon all day and do nothing. I feel myself slipping into my scared and protective mode, where I like to hide in the apartment and not let anyone come near me.

I miss jarrod. His work is really bad right now so we aren't talking much. PLus he's playing Lineage II constantly with our friend Cru.. so I'm kinda lonely.

I told my dad i'm probably not coming home in June because of my sister being a ho-bag bitch. He said I went EASY on her in the email, but that he and mom don't want to get involved any more because it just makes their lives more miserable.

I can understand, but its not fair I have to fight this alone....