Legal aid of los angeles emailed me about an interview. That makes three. I should have started with public interest to begin with. I guess i was getting greedy. I studied for con law a little, I was going to do an essay but I didn't eat enough and ended up bedridden and in pain. I woke up about an hour ago (at four am). I made Jarrod take x-2 away from me and send it back to gamefly. Otherwise i was never going to get ANYTHING done, but I do plan to re-rent it after I take the bar. I'm addicted.

I feel so down still, though, despite the good job news. That woman from the other day really destroyed me. I don't know if I have what it takes to pass this bar exam. She wanted me to memorize things word for word, and implied I wasn't doing enough if I didn't study 8 hours a day. Maybe she's right. Maybe i was never cut out to be a lawyer. Maybe I'd be a shame to the law community. Sometimes I feel like giving up and finding a new direction in life.

Maybe I'm letting jarrod down that i don't have a job yet. even with the fellowship i feel like a loser.

Bah.