Last week was a total waste. I blew most of it, but i did go to class yesterday. My sleep has been all screwed up. Jarrod is being very hard on himself about not getting around to doing the things he wants to do. I can totally relate. It's hard to watch him abusing himself like that. I've been feeling detached from my body, like my hands are not my own, etc. I've always craved the TASTE of coffee day in and day out. I've started even drinking decaf just so i can get the taste without the kick. I know I'm kicking around. I am unfocused, which is my problem in general.

today I plan on going to the post office (I sold two books) and then to trader joe's to pick up some food. I'm tired of living in a house devoid of food. Maybe i'll do one wash as well.

Annnnnyway....

I guess I'm kinda zen this morning, no anxiety. I plan to get two essays done today. If it doesn't happen, I won't abuse myself.